SCHOOLING
hi guysi know i know
it's been ages since i blog haha
but hey, i do msn u guys though
so far, it has been two weeks of sch for me and i'm finding the going pretty tough
well, first and foremost, if anyone tell u that university is more slack than jc, dun fuckin(excuse mi) believe them....
ya lo, true that u hav more freedom, the freedom to pon lecture etc, but i assure u, u have to do alot of reading .
one thing about smu is that class participation counts a significant part towards the final grade
n TT is where i am most worried about
i'm a quiet person,
i dun speak out much in klass
in smu rite, there's a lot of zai ppl
not the wayang type(got a few la), but those when they speak ar, can c they got substance one
so u c, i'm studying with a lot of smart ppl around me
the pressure is surely there
i do wat i can to learn from these ppl
again, it comes down to asking qn and contributing in klass
i am now telling myself i muzzzz at least raise my hand once in every lecture i attended.but so far , i hav onli done it for this week's biz law
today's communication lesson was a total disaster.It is a module where class participation and the ability to present oneself counted the most in your final grade.I sat through the whole lesson without uttering a single word to the klass and surely, tt constitute a poor show..
it's myself la,
i'm the barrier to myself
speaking to a large crowd of unfamaliar ppl unnerves mi abit
sometimes, u worry about the things u say make no sense at all
u afraid u will say something totally irrelevant
or it's i get nervous in front of a huge crowd and i tend to get too wordy in my speech
every time after each lesson end, i realli feel quite down at times,..
i always tell myself b4 lect muz speak up but in the end, it was not to be
sometimes , i juz damn suay la
there are times when i hav something to offer but someone super faster than mi, already say out liaoz
sometimes, i canot get the prof attention
some of my frens did offer mi a few tips, like sitting where u can make eye contact with the prof, juz shout out the ans, or when u are speaking, look at ppl's forehead n not the eyes so tt u will not get nervous
ONe of my module classmate was so nice as in to say that next time in class, if any of my grpmates got ideas , we give the quiet ones like me the idea then let us speak out in klass..
so many times i told myself i wana speak, so many times i fail
i realli dread to imagine wat my final grade will be like if i go on like tt
but hey, i'm not gg to resign to fate juz like tt...
i'm gg to try joining the TOASTMASTER meetings and hopefully learn something from there
i 'm trying to smile more (yea haha...u guys noe i always hav the grumpy face)
open up more, more friendly, dun get so shy(ya la with u bastards of coz i not shy la but to strangers i m quite ok)
smu is a competitive place, it's a system whereby u are forced to be more outspoken n assertive , or if u dun, u lose out
to mi, it's a challegene
a challengne i hope to win
haiz
posted by zaraki85 @ 1:55 pm
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